I am a little disconcerted by this but, for the first time ever I prepared for the first day of school the night before. I know, I can hear you, why weren’t you always doing that? Because I’m me, that’s why.
Last night I wrote in 14′s school book. Note, I actually HAD 14′s school book, that was a miracle in itself.
I wrote a cheque for her lunches for the coming half-term. Cheques, remember them?
I had cash for her classroom funds.
I was ahead! (Managed without a hat.)
I am not sure how I felt when the bus arrived and 14 went off as happy as ever for school. Those six weeks aren’t just a new pattern for kids, they are a new pattern for parents, at least for this parent. I sat down for a while and didn’t have to catch my breath. For the first time I didn’t feel this day was long-awaited and desperately needed, I had plenty of breaths during the summer.
22 and I walked down to town to collect my new glasses.
I stretched out on the couch and read.
And at the end of her day 14 came home and did much the same thing.
Today I learned an important thing, apart from my family my greatest joy is being behind a camera.
One way or another the change I want to make in my life is to make the camera much more central. How likely that will be, how realistic and in what manner, we will have to see.
The delicate tones of Polaroid Softtone film, the click of the shutter, the whir of the shot being released, the wait while black and grey whirls change into an image before your eyes.
Behind a lens the world is stand still, breath steadies, a view is framed.
I hope you were able to do something today that made you truly happy. Please share your moments in the comments below.
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